Trying to run, hide, from my thoughts
Consuming me, burning up inside
I bury myself in life
I run around and do thousands of things
So many things that I can forget my thoughts
So many things that I can forget to think
I run from one thing to the next,
Never daring to pause, never daring to let anything catch up
Knowing that if I do, the shit hits the fan
And so I bury myself in the life around me
Helping others, hiding truths from myself
Attempting to atone for all of my crimes
Life surrounds me, catches me up into its fast paced spell
And I surrender to the unstoppable force that pulls me along
Not really wanting to stop at all
Days go by, weeks, months, years
But after years go by, I finally dare to pause for a moment
Having forgotten my thoughts for so long
And I realize the horrendous mistake that I made
My thoughts made me who I am
I ran from them, I would not accept them
I denied who I was and couldn't even see my mistake
As I sadly shake my head in regret, I realize
That in burying myself in life, I somehow forgot to live.