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			don't know where to start these feelings gotta get out their consuming my mind their starting to conrol my life taking over everything I am changing everything I was I'm here on this ledge looking over the emptyness below screaming out, hoping that someone will hear me and not let me let go I can't understand the reasons for this it seems like it just always happens to me I can't see the flaw inside but I know that it exist cause when anyone gets close they find it and it makes them run from me I'm here on this ledge looking over all of my life screaming out, hoping that you'll appear and not let me let go these memories are more like nightmares their terror haunts me all through each day I try to put them to rest and leave them in the past but I just can't let go of them I question every intention of everyone all of my trust is leaving I'm here on this ledge looking over all of our time screaming out, wishing that things were different if only then I wouldn't be here
		another thought........not complete yet
	the truth of the matter is that I maybe alone, and I maybe torn inside/ but I'm moving forward, my heart is healing/ I'm escaping the memories of those feelings/ I'm becoming something other than I was/ take the pain/ make it part of me/ so many times I've broken down/ so many times I've felt rejected, neglected, and denied/ but the sun comes up again and I feel alive/ I move forward/ won't allow myself to drown inside of my own misery/ I'm thankful for the times we had/ some day may bring things back around, not gonna wait for it though/ no breath held by me/ take the pain/ make it part of me/ build myself up internally/ can't deny I felt like nothing/ I was lost in a chaos of emotion/ as with every storm it passed/ and I remained/