Hi I'm jjandbelle.
I signed up on 04/01/98 16:30:37, and we are moving in today. Welcome to our humble home...take off your clothes put on the restraints and pull up a bench and get comfy....here is the begining to our story... Well my life as a slave started online as many of us can relate too. I answered an ad that said, “Needs slave.” Well out of curiosity I answered this ad. Low and behold I found my Master. We associated first in answer and question period of why I was looking for this lifestyle and what I had hope to find. I thought on this for many days before my answer would come out honestly and freely, but I found the words coming from my heart and not the words I had written down on paper. I think what really convinced me of going to him was his words that described the relationship of a Master and slave, they read “to have a female surrender to a Dom, as a gift of trust and commitment gives a sense of purpose to ones life in a special irreplaceable way. It is a kind of trust that is demonstrated by the reactions observed in a training session where a sub surrenders her safety to her D/M by allowing her self to be bound naked and helpless, totally vulnerable to his desires accepting both pain and pleasure at levels bordering on agony and ecstasy” I was hooked. I had never been so excited before in my life and never so aroused. Well I received his first command and that was to shave my most private area and he said that he would know by the look in my eyes if I had done what he had said, when he said. So I did without hesitation or remorse. (Accept at first growth the itching drove me nuts) This went on about two weeks before we meet. He wanted me to become aware of myself and enhance my sensitivity. Which of course this did. So I went to him. It was a four-hour drive of hard thinking and realization that I was going to a situation I thought I could never accept. You see I came from a very abusive marriage. I still went if not out of respect but for satisfaction of what I was looking for...you might say a void in my life. Well it happened,. I made it to His door. At first I looked for an escape out but he made me feel so at ease. He let me relax a few minutes and adjust myself to the atmosphere around me. We talked, laughed and I finally settled into what was to happen. I looked around the room, the hooks from the ceiling, the SWORDS on the wall, and then back into his eyes..oh his eyes. He had told me in letters by E-mail that I would be in for an examination like I had never experienced before in my life. I, at that time did not know what to expect. As I kept starring at the hook from the ceiling, I soon found out what he meant. I went into the bathroom and prepared myself by taking off the clothes that so concealed my body..embarrassed at first but then releasing all inhibitions that I had, had. I cleansed myself and entered back into His domain and not knowing what to expect next. He then started by placing my wrist and ankle restraints on. Looking into my eye’s he then showed me my collar...I gladly excepted it with a little nervousness. I bowed my head to him and pulled back my hair and let him place my collar on my neck. He then placed a chain onto the hook from the ceiling and locked my wrist into place, where I could not get loose. He then placed a spreader bar between my legs spreading my legs apart and tying them to the bar. I was completely vulnerable at that point and no place to go. I was had, but my arousal was soaring at the time..I was helpless. He then began the examination by feeling over my body examining all the orifices of my soul. Invading all of them one way or the other. I was helpless...strung up with no place to go or move, my heart racing like never before I had found my ecstasy I had finally found what I was looking for, I could tell in my heart if not my soul. He comforted me with his words and made me feel safe inside. He made sure I was still okay with my decision to go that step beyond my imagination and fantasy. I was sure so we proceeded in my first training session. He oiled me down the feeling of his hands on my body made it come alive. Then it happened the first hit with the paddle. My emotions went soaring. I did not know whether to cuss, scream, or tell him just to get away. Then the second one and then third, to tell the truth it hurt like hell but I was so sexually stimulated in a way that I could not explain at the time. I did not go to my *place* the first time around he just wanted me to know in my heart if this was what I wanted and let me feel the pain and the pleasure that come with it. The whole time while he administered the pain he also stimulated pleasure with playing with my most private areas. I have never been so truly aroused in my life and thankful at the same time. He let my wrist down I sat on the floor next to him, it was hard to sit comfortably at first my butt was on fire, he took ice out and applied it to the area that he had worked on. We took a short break, I think he was allowing me to let what had just happen to soak in and try to understand it which at that point I could not. After the short break he took me into his bedroom and told me to lie in the middle of the bed, still with all leather in place he broke out the rope. He kissed me gently as he secured my legs spread eagle to the hooks on his bed and then my arms securely above my head, I wonder what was to happen next. The first hit to my inner thighs was ascureating pain they were so sensitive and when he put the nipple clamps on I was beside myself. I did not think I could take anymore, yet I was so wet with desire I let him continue. The pain was beyond belief, yet he kept it up by the paddle and pulling on the chain that linked the nipple clamps together. After a while he broke out the dildos and placed the vibrator on my clit it was a sensation like I have never felt before, my heart was pounding it was though I had just become alive, a new birth you might say. He continued with the vibrator and the paddle on my thighs, I soon could associate in my mind that pain could equal pleasure. To tie the two together is something I never thought I could . I have never been so sensitive in my life and the orgasm I had was beyond belief. This went on the entire weekend, training to find my realization that arousing through the pain and the soreness there was a certain awaking within my soul a passion that only he could release within the depths of the darkness of my soul. My heart had been so cold for years, a resistance you might say to feelings and awakenings of inner self, but the first night of realization hit me like a ton of bricks and I had found my true being inside of his rapture. I finally went to my place after a time being it is a place beyond belief, it is a place where you go and look upon your soul and feel total happiness and trust. It is a place that I heard about from others and all I could think in my mind is that these people are nuts. How can you turn all the pain into such intense pleasure that you leave your body and look down upon it? When I first went to it I was at such peace it was very hard to come back from. When I did though my body was more alive then ever just a simple touch from him sent me soaring. I could feel my nerve endings standing on edge. My heart pounding with desire and passion. It is so hard to explain but my Master does try in these words, “you have heard of the long distance runners getting to something they call the “wall” at the peak of their endurance to “pain” the body tries to shut the runners ability to continue by sending pain signals to the legs, arms ribs, etc...to try and make him slow down there by decreasing the nerve inputssending information to the brain. When the runner pushes through the wall something call endorphines is released to turn some of the “pain”signals into pleasure ones thereby giving the brain the ability to allow the runner to continue with out loss of performance and even get a “high” from it. At the same time the brain begins to create more new nerve path ways in those areas so that the next time it can simply release the endorphines and go straight to the high and avoid the “pain”. I have now been with my Master for a couple months now, about 4 months if you count online time and I have learnt that I can put my full trust in him and I can love again without reservation. I have given him my heart, soul, mind and body. To you Dear Sir, with honors of being your slave now and forever******

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