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These pages of my Entre-Nous site are dedicated to all those on the journey with "the wolf" and the loved ones and acquaintances who share it. Tread carefully through the
information and experiences here. We may travel separate paths but
we are all in this together. One day,
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My 'Sung< Manitu Tan Ka
Entre-Nous
(The "Wolf" Between Us)
The Disease of A Thousand Faces
What began with a single step and a "wolf" lurking in the shadows has become a daily jaunt, for years now, through arctic storms and beautiful pastures in this life.
When I first heard the words, "I think you have Lupus," I felt many things. Bewilderment hit first. Sure, I heard the term before but knew little about it. Then I instantly recalled the sorrowful tone that usually accompanied it. Little did I know of the journey and the many hours of research ahead.
Welcome to the Path
With you, I share 'Sung < Manitu Tan Ka, my companion, our battles and lessons learned along the way.
My 'Sung < Manitu Tan Ka,
my enemy, my friend.
Choose your destination
Reflections The Betrayal
The Match Lessons of the Wolf
Reflections
We can never know another person's journey until we have truly walked a mile in his or her moccasins. My encounter with my 'Sung Manitu Tan ka, the wolf within, is my own. Anyone who wanders this path will have a different account.
The wolf has many faces. It is a glorious, intelligent, and loyal animal, at rest. However, when it stalks its prey, it searches for weaknesses. It seeks those damaged areas and takes hold.
A jaunt with the wolf is rewarding and trying, arduous and peaceful, and always an adventure! With my 'Sung
within, my quest never ends. We know little rest. Eternal companions, joined in this life through some mystical force, we sometimes, find peace. I believe we learn from each other. We test each other and share this dance called life.
The Betrayal
When I learned that the wolf symbolized lupus, I instantly felt betrayed. "How could an animal spirit I loved so dearly, turn on me, stalk me, and literally rip my body and life to shreds?" I wondered.
I couldn't even see this mortal enemy. I couldn't even fathom it was my enemy. Yet, when I looked into the mirror, its marks stared back at me. Its eyes were now my eyes- angry, red and jaundiced. I knew I had to face it, to look deep within.
As I struggled to get my kidneys out of bed each morning, to overcome the daily fever of at least 101, the exhaustion that overwhelmed and the collagen peeking through the hair follicles, I knew I had to go on. I had to venture further. I was a medical student once. Surely, there had to be an answer!
....There was none, only more mystery.
Once more, I felt betrayed. My native spirit called. I wanted answers. I wanted them now.
You see, I believe we know many things when we are born. From the very first, I felt three spirits with me. To them I was drawn, irrevocably.
The wolf
The bear
The eagle
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