life just seems to twist into this untangled mess that i can never unravel. one of my closest friends just left for california ... to move back home and i just wanted to push her away. because i know she has her friends up there now. pushing away, so it wouldn't hurt me and i ended up hurting her. *sigh* i hurt the people i love and care about the most. i hate that. my life is headed for a question mark. i don't know how i'm going to support myself in the upcoming months. *sigh* i got two jobs, but that's not going to be enough. and, if i don't pass english 100 then there goes the $400 dollars i plunked down for it. july 27, 2000 .. i'm sitting down in front of a computer writing my depressive thoughts while leaving life for a little joyride on the world wide web and capturing the essence of it all on this little dinky homepage i'm creating. my lord, what have i come to? well, teresa or maria --- if you are reading this, then "hello." I think life sucks. dayam, this homepage sucks. i miss you guys and I miss happiness. *sigh*
