tinydanzagurl: <3
tinydanzagurl: i am studying math
tinydanzagurl: but id rather look at your pictures on the wall
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: mmm good... i was about to call
tinydanzagurl: i am getting ready to shave my legs
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: i think i know what i want to say... that is i've
written it down several ways and times.
tinydanzagurl: and shower
tinydanzagurl: which i havent done all day
tinydanzagurl: id love to hear it
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: I think we made a mistake. One that can't be fixed
right away, one that might take a few years to correct. Which I think was
sort of the plan? I cannot give you the attention you most definatly
deserve up there, even though i'd die to do so. So i'll wait, as i've always
said i'd wait. I'll wait forever if that's what it would take. I love you so
much and I know I always will but it hurts, knowing we're not truely
together except in love.
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: There is much much more... but I think i'll send it
in a letter.
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: i've done a lot of thinking these past few days and
nights. And quite a bit of writing.
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: When we talked on the phone. I meant to say I
love you, but I couldn't. I was choking. I'm sorry
tinydanzagurl: i just want you not to be sad
tinydanzagurl: i want you not to owrry about me because im still yours
tinydanzagurl: and you didnt make any mistakes..your wonderful
tinydanzagurl: its just life and growing and distance and i dont know what else
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: Well... I'm getting over it. But it's going to take a
lot of time. I've written down a lot of meaningfull things i'd love for you
to read. Promises, etc...
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: I know this had to happen, and I thought I was
ready. That turned out to be a phalacy
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: I'm just being love sick... There isn't a way around
it. I'll always be yours, in life and in death. I know one day we'll be
together again, i'll work very hard to make it so.
tinydanzagurl: ill try my best to deserve you when we will be togeather again
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: There is a lot to miss about you Megan. You're
the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. I don't know why it's hard
for me to actually speak this, i've never been great at words. The only
feeling that is really tearing me apart is that the greatest thing has just
been taken from me. I'm not sure i'll ever see it again. Not any time
soon anyways.
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: Many words were empty, without definition, until
we met up on the school hill nearly two years ago. These words will
always be kept for you, but i'm trying to find a way to put them all down.
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: I've got to go to class... and i'm sure you've things
to do also... but i needed to talk to you
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: to tell you that...
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: i'll be sending you a letter
tinydanzagurl: i love you
tinydanzagurl: dont think that you dont have me anymore because you do
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: i love you so much Megan...
tinydanzagurl: ill chech my mail everyday
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: ok =) I love you ( dearly ). I've got to run, i'll be
late
IgNoREd ThOUghTs: and goodnight... sweet dreams
tinydanzagurl: bye love