As I
was putting Carl to bed tonight
the
moment I have been dreading since he was diagnosed Disabled Arrived!
Every
night before bed Carl and I will read a story together.
I let
him pick witch story he wants to read.
Tonight
we read the story "All Kinds of Minds" by Mel Lavine.
This
is a book that tells stories about children with disablities
and
how they over come.
We
read one little boy's story and as I was kissing him good night
he
looked at me and said
"Mama
why me?"
As
my throat closed on the tears I would not allow myself to shed
I told
him that God had chosen him to be special
that
he had a special purpose in life
that
in time he would know God's special plan for him.
Of
course his next question was
"When?"
I tried
to explain that I did not know when
God
would make his plans known to us
but
being
5 years old I don't think he understood.
As
I was pulling up the covers he looked at me and said,
" Mama,
is ok. God love me. Don't cry!"
I guess
he could see the tears in my eyes.
Now
that Carl is asleep
I am
sitting here crying my eyes out
wondering
what I did right to deserve
this
wonderful child
