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MY BEAUTIFUL MOTHER BERTHA MAE HANEY NEWCOMB

I could not be with you on Mothers day or your birthday the last two years and I need very much to tell you how much I love you again ! As you know I am doing better but, I will always need to talk to you. I have found that by putting my feelings down on these pages and in my Journal I feel a little more like I am writing a letter to you. I have also found that it can help others who have lost their Mothers to read pages like this and that way we don't feel so alone in our grief. I LOVE YOU !!!

I know you probably would have liked for me to have used a different picture of you on the first page but, this one with you not dressed up, is my Mom at home and relaxed and it has become one I cherish.As you know I have your (Baby)Pierre now and he is doing great , he seems to be happy here with us and he is even playing again. The kids all love him and help take care of him (we all know how much he grieved for you). I don't know if he realizes that you are not coming back or not. but as I said he is doing fine now. Well Mom, I know you knew that Dad was allowing his imagination to run away with him and was getting angry more and more often..The doctors have now given it a name (severe irreversable dementia) some say alztheimers ..I am glad that it is over for you as he has been worse since you left ( I know how much it hurt you) and he will only get worse never better..I have been hurt so much by the things he says and does (it seems I took your place as the one to hurt the most) I try to tell myself that he doesn't know what he is doing...I saw my" Dad" yesterday , it had been so long since he acted like my Dad that I had thought he probably was gone for good. It was so good to have him back even for a little while. Sometimes it is less painful if I can just stay angry with him. It has been twenty two month since you left us and not a day goes by that you are not on my mind at least part of the day As it gets closer to the time when you left this world I think about you more and more..I will always LOVE and MISS you so very much especially around any special day (birthdays,and holidays most of all Mother's Day and Christmas)..

Still missing you so much !! Dad left here to be with you again on 12-22-2003. I know you are both so much happier now. I know now that he had more wrong inside his head than just confusion, he was having strokes.

As Christmas was your birthday I never see anything that is for Christmas that I don't think of you !

Mom and Dad Nov/97.....
TOGETHER AGAIN 12-22-2003 !! THIS TIME FOREVER !!!

IRA CRAWFORD HANEY(grandpa) and CLARA MAE SANDERS HANEY(granny)These are Mom's parents

My Thanks to this wonderful Lady who is kind enough to make Memorials