Sitting here daydreaming of my past.
why
happy moments just fly by so fast?
A
sad thought lost in ocean so vast.
Holding
on to nothing as nothing ever lasts.
Glimpse
of hope in the midst of my fear.
In
my heart, the presences so near;
On
my mind, the images so dear;
Yet
my vision, can’t see pass the tears.
Don’t
want to go on, deep inside I confess.
Tending
to my wounds, I gently caress.
Feel
the trembling of anger I possess.
Open
my hands to reveal life’s emptiness.
I
start to pray as I’m losing this fight.
Struggling to walk the dark path with no light.
As
my existence is slipping out of sight,
hear the echo of my cry in the night.
I
laugh out loud in bitter and pain.
All
my cares and efforts ‘ve
been in vain.
I’m
on the verge of going insane.
So
you’ve beaten me, but what have you gained?
Wish
I can spread my wings and fly.
All
in all, I’ve nothing left inside.
Still
a thought torturing my mind,
why
is it that I can’t simply die?
Huu
Cao
08/21/02