I know I have way too many songs on here for one page, but I really don't have time
to mess with it right now. I'm doing good to even get them typed.
They are listed oldest to newest, kinda...yeah...
Just click below on the one you would like to read and it magically scrolls there for you!
Or click your heels to head back home...Ruby Slippers

pass me by; christened arms lingering by my side
resting on a feeling of passion gone awry the evening that you died
Your spirit's keeping me alive, yet holding me
down to a minimal life of wishin you were here, the burn of another tear

So fly - and let me be
So fly - let the sun set on this place, on this aura that's beholding me to you
please fly

caught somewhere between all the angels and the earth
trying to take me with you but you know I can't leave, it's just not my time
it's so hard to say goodbye to you, since your soul
won't even let you go, so you must let it; it's not about me

So fly - let me be
So fly - let the sun set on this place, on this aura that's beholding me to you
that's beholding me to you - please fly

"the shore"

you stood there with no friends
you felt like your whole world was coming to an end,
and you think it was your fault
and you can't think of anyone that you'd like to call;

well don't you worry, cause a hand's always there
to lift you out of hardship, pain and despair

A hand's always there
to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt
so ride the tide - ride it on into the shore

a mediocre life, has followed you around admist pain and strife
and when there was hope inside you
you thought it'd live forever but then it died

well don't you worry, cause a hand's always there
to lift you out of hardship, pain, and despair

A hand's always there
to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt
so ride the tide - ride it on into the shore

and when you can't tell where you've been
just wait and listen

Because a hand's always there
to pull you out when you're in trouble or when you're in doubt
so ride...ride...the tide - ride it on into the shore
ride it on into the shore

"involuntary"

i'm gonna pray for yesterday, hope God turns back the hands of fate
cause seconds glue your memory steadfast into the darkness, fleeting
each detail i cherish, slowly fades away
as the morning sun's rays seal the clouds away
And the trail you left behind wasn't strong enough to follow
guess you wanted it that way, guess it had to be that way
seeking Circumstance, make her proud to call my name
show me signs that point the way

treading through the parted sea
had a boat, but that sea was taken away, far from me
treading through the parted sea
a compass in my pocket, but for it, i have no need
cause my path's planned out for me
involuntary

navigation by the stars held captive in your eyes
didn't bother Common Sense to ask his opinion
maybe he'd fed me the truth with his silver spoon
placed the mud upon my eyes, restored vision in my mind
capturing my ghost so that i may have a soul
my shadow only burdening my way

treading through the parted sea
had a boat, but that sea was taken away, far from me
treading through the parted sea
a compass in my pocket, but for it, i have no need
cause my path's planned out for me
involuntary

yeah you planned my path for me, voluntary

"only girls know how"

winding my eyes down the ivy that grew
along the balcony made out of wood
seeing my breasts through the white night gown
that clung to my body as the sun fell down

she tiptoed to the corner in emerald green tights
hair to her shoulders, pulled back in a tie
reciting our favorite Shakespearean lines
as Mr. Stroupe pulled into the drive

Whatever happened to those days?
We wrote and we filmed and we found out the ways
that only girls know how
portraying our lives through the innocense shroud

mixing the cola and tabasco sauce
not taking Truth cause if so, it's a loss
holding our noses as the film ran down
our throats burning madly, but we never did frown

I remember the night I laid eyes on the star
that fell from the heavens, across the moon's arm
we laid on the dew-dampened deck until dusk
and thought up of wishes for our crushes

Whatever happened to those days?
we sang and we played and found out the ways
that only girls know how
portraying our lives through the innocense shroud

"My Own Life's Will"

Alone on the highway of life
I'm stuck without a map or a sign in which to guide
My feet are tired, and my eyes are falling from the stars in the sky

I thought I was searching for the right thing
But my eyes weren't looking up cause my head was in the clouds
My thinking wasn't reasoning but just feelings that I trusted

And all I need is a little hope
a little gas to fill my heart's tank
So that I can get off this sidewalk and begin to run the race
And even though my thumb is tired
and I've relied on other's plans
I know now that I must give in and search my own life's will

No one offered me a lift
I had to catch my every move on someone else's drift
Do you know how much fun that is
holding on to someone else's back, never knowin where you're goin next?

Well, all I need is a little hope
a little gas to fill my heart's tank
So that I can get off this sidewalk and begin to run the race
And even though my thumb is tired
and I've relied on other's plans
I know now that I must give in and search my own life's will

"Already A Man"

So you need to say what's on your mind
Daddy had a talk with you last night
It seems as if he thinks he's gonna go away
You're scared, you're hurt and "Overnight,
I can't become a man"
you say
that life has never been kind
and far too much as weighed upon your mind

Don't breakdown, keep your cool
You can make it son, you're no fool
Take my hand, and I'll be there
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man

Finding hope in the sovreign skies
Telling friends when it hurts too much to cry
You want to believe there will always be life
But You're scared, you're hurt and "Overnight, I can't become a man"
You say
that life has never been kind
and far too much has weighed upon your mind

Don't breakdown, keep your cool
You can make it son, you're no fool
Take my hand, and I'll be there
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man
Cause in my eyes, You're already a man

"The Game"

Taking back the fuel that lit the fire
Underestimating your power
And only time will tell us who's the living fool of all of this

Never planned on life happening this way
Never thought I'd ever live to see the day
Where only mankind can evolve to be a Game

So put yourselves where you want you on the board
Knock around yourselves til everyone gets bored
Make a pass, make a move til there's no one left

Itching for a past that can never be mine
Taking a trip that leads me somewhere back in time
Where Future stands and holds her hands out to the crowd

Then Death will overcome
And all will have wished that they'd calmed down
To see exactly what's in front of them
In front of them

"Not At All"

Over my head and through the woods
his love floated by, riding the sky
I should have paid more attention
or at least smacked him with a one-penny fine

Everything's in jest with his chest
never knew what was coming back at me
Didn't take too long to figure out though
when he sounded dull and asleep

Petrified for his love
wanting to have it all inside
Can't see the forest for my knees
down too low for anyone to see
Can't hold on to nothing without a desperate heart
but grasping at something I can never have is better than not grasping at all

He said don't miss me too much
I said I'll miss you just enough
Guess it didn't matter that he thought my southern accent
was the icing on the cake

Petrified for his love
wanting to have it all inside
Can't see the forest for my knees
down too low for anyone to see
Can't hold on to nothing without a desperate heart
but grasping at something I can never have is better than not grasping at all

"Friend"

You're the wind I rely on without realizing it
the petal that fills my senses with sweetness
the wrinkles that make the smile on my face
the love I’ve found in something blind and intangible

The friend I’ve found in you
The fire to warm me through

You’re the glasses that let me see the rainbow
the mystery of the human touch
the fondness that I find in the wake of an ocean wave
the proxy of all my emotions

The friend I’ve found in you
The fire to warm me through

"No More"

Grab me by the arm again, bastard
Touch me again like the wind bites little noses
burning, dry, and lonely feeling cold inside

Smile so chesire, got your people fooled
Had me caught inside you too
A hole of knowing not what to think, to feel, to do

Why couldn't I pull out & show my face
Cause I was not to blame all along
But you held me so strong that being free was a simile for hell

Caress me with your evil eyes
Hypnotize the child inside
Make her feel small enough to hide
under the bed inside her dollhouse

Ring the bell, it's time to eat
You threw me down and made me feed you
But no more

Why couldn't I pull out & show my face
Cause I was not to blame all along
But you held me so strong that being free was a simile for hell

No more will you hold me
No more will you control me
No more will my flag fly white
But red with fury and strength, without worry

Why couldn't I pull out & show my face
Cause I was not to blame all along
But you held me so strong that being free was a simile for hell

"Guardian of Space"

Serenity, make a path for me
Take my burden and leave me apathy
Wash away the water that has turned dim
and douse the nothingness that grows within

And leave me the Guardian of Space
Who holds each heart by its strings
And the nothingness you hide, and the hurt you feel inside
will pass away

Holiness, make a path for me
Take my burden and leave me apathy
Wash away the water that has turned dim
and douse the nothingness that burns within

And leave me the Guardian of Space
Who holds each heart by its strings
And the nothingness you hide, and the hurt you feel inside
will float away

"After All These Years"

Living out your past, to find the storms again
Maybe you'll learn this time before you try to fall
Did it occur to you, what you were doin?
Forever cursed
Doomed to life, to me, and to the lie
Did you ever wanna kick back and just breathe?

And you cannot hide
This time, drop your pride

Cause After all these years,
And After all these tears,
And After all this pain,
You want to decide if you'll be a friend
Well try to find the frown
That let you appreciate the smile
That you once had when you had me
For the longest time

I hope you learn this time that you have to
break down all the barriers before you hit the ground
Cause no one can tell you
It's one of those things you have to learn for yourself

And once you come
You'll carry the weight of it all

So After all these years,
And After all these tears,
And After all this pain,
You want to decide if you'll be a friend
Well try to find the frown
That let you appreciate the smile
That you once had when you had me
For the longest time
And do you believe that love
Could ever surround you again?
Maybe you'll wanna try
and make amends this time

"My Smile is for You"

It's clear, roll down the windows eat hair as we find a rubberband
Lay tracks on the cul de sac singin Dire Straits with the sun to our backs

Let's go stand out under open sky, the clouds absorb the city lights
As a mist begins to dance around, I turn your way to say

My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you

You always say what i least expect, Shifting the gears inside my head
You make me wanna believe, That i can be anything i wanna be

Let's go run nude thru the neighborhood, make em talk for a little while
And as we streak at Walnut Creek, I turn your way to say

My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you

Each day's made better by the fact that you are near
Even the rain seems happy, it's melody i hear

So come with me - let me ride upon your shoulders so that
I can see - is that our man on stage??

Let's get him to sign a body part
It might seem cool, but not so smart
And as we plow right thru the line
I take your hand in mine...

My smile is for you
Don't make me choose between Bob Dylan and
You set me free
With you babe it's just so easy
My mind unwinds with ease,
This is where i wanna be
I'm high as the moon, and babe,
My smile is for you

"Poison on the Dart"

I'm too impatient to wait for an experience
too cold under water to feel bubbles surround me
Honored breathing that never was granted
on mother's machine and held up by strands

And although it kept me from gettin into trouble
I lived a lie, even though I sorta enjoyed it
want to be the old me again, but I can't go back
The birth of this being is stronger, its grip's its attack

So for Fortune, a fool have I been
Of Fate a puppet, a masked hooligan
from restraint & rules a martyr's target
and the poison on the dart, I digested

Wanting to be alone, on my own, since I was ten
stuck in a time warp that holds my face
it's younger than my mind, my mouth
holding the child I'll have in my sixteenth dream

so other's maturity begins to dampen mine
that old feeling of worth slips right away
I grasp in the chilly darkness of my mind
but it's gone until the next day

So for Fortune, a fool have I been
Of Fate a puppet, a masked hooligan
from restraint & rules a martyr's target
and the poison on the dart, I digested

"Soldiers Come to Play"

Stared at the Sun for an hour today
Trying to become blind in my own way
Thought it'd help release the pain, but I was just left dazed
To see the truth with my broken heart

So I use my mind's eye to deliver me,
from something that's worse than holding on
when time does not allow - when time does not allow

True feelings never change but hearts in an instant can
start to beat backwards or the opposite way
So fortune may find me a beggar on her streets,
but I believe I'll be okay when the Soldiers come to play

So use your mind's eye to deliver you,
from something that's worse than holding on
when time does not allow - when time does not allow

So use your mind'e eye to deliver you
From something that's worse than holding on

"Let Me Stay"

Holding back the past you wanted me to find,
along the broken path
But you never dared, never even dared to care
Never wanted something tangible, something beautiful,
never saw that in me or you
Never really wanted to

So do you ever make the day, when you're shining in your armor?
and you cry out to me, "Let me stay."
And do you ever make the day, when you're shining in your armor?
and you cry out to me, "Let me stay....oh let me stay."

I always tried to be the one you needed
Closed eyes, closed mouth. Soft heart, right now
But you couldn't see that I was doing it for me
So you'll stand, strong & proud
to impress the people that didn't really give a damn
Overlooking the one who made you a man

So will you ever make the day when you're shining in your armor?
and cry out to me, "Let me stay."
And will you ever make the day when you're shining in your armor...
...and you'll cry out to me, "Let me stay...oh let me stay."

"Give Her All Your Heart"

She's there for you during your trials
She gets up, fixes breakfast and all the while
You're rushing out the door at the speed of light
Never taking the time to thank her for the strife

So one day when you come home
I hope to God that she's not gone
cause love was never recognized enough
And if you thought life was hard, it's gonna be more rough

Do you kiss the moonlight as it gently falls upon her cheek?
and do you catch the rays of sun as they illuminate her face?
And do you take the time to make a wish under a falling star?
She's all you got, your love - your life
So give her all your heart

Take a little time to make a little love
Give her the attention and affection she deserves
Cause love is not a free-for-all
and it's not all take and no give

So you better kiss the moonlight as it gently falls upon her cheek
and catch the rays of sun as they illuminate her face
Do you take the time to make a wish under a falling star?
She's all you got, your love - your life
So give her all your heart

"Gone"

I relinquish my decency for the art of efficiency
like the common man who cannot comprehend
Why the world reaps deterioration and
where love can no longer heal the soul


You try to hide away in my bed,
pull the sheets over your head
and watch me through the visor of our lies
Where one may think that love still abides

But it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...

Forget about the times we shared when we were so very happy
Memories that become sour never ripen again
And we can smile and hold each other's hands
But we'll never get back to where we were

Cause it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...

And it cannot come back no matter how hard we try
Forgivin and forgettin are 2 different games...
...2 different plains.

Now it's Gone, gone,
faded into the evening with my
Song,
wishing for that certain feeling that's
Gone, gone, gone...
yeah, it's gone, gone, gone....

"Let It Go"

I can't promise I'll be nice if you come through the door
I can't carry you over the threshold anymore
It's too cold outside and too hot inside
But you can't straddle that fence anymore

So put on your jacket and walk away
Or hang up the memories and stay
Put on your boots and trample through the snow
Or sit with me by the fireplace and let it all go

Fall used to be my favorite season
But it holds too many ironies now
That period that exists between two extremes
Engulfs me as I try to find my way somehow

What was like turned into love
But never turned back to like
They carry each other like we used to carry one another
But honestly, hasn't winter come?

So put on your jacket and walk away
Don't hang up those memories and stay
Put on your boots and trample through our show
Cause this fire's spread and I can't let it go

"Little Miss Religion"

Little Miss Religion, you tried to save them all
fighting all you loved to help them see the light above your wall.
No one gave you the time of day and didn't want to see your magic
It's not your fault the way you are: strong, stubborn, loving and smart

Broken-hearted by one too many people in your life
Always giving, never getting - did it work out alright?

Little Miss Religion, do you find yourself knocking on the door
leading into a place you weren't wanted anyway?
Kill 'em with kindness is what you always told me,
but being too kind only gets you so far
I guess we've learned that the hardway

Broken-hearted by one too many people in your life
Always giving, never getting - did it work out alright?

"On Your Own"

There aren't voices in your head for no reason
There aren't forces in the world just to change the seasons
Saying that they don't exist is like saying that your mind plays tricks
You control it all - you've gotta make the call

What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own

What goes in one ear comes out the other
Unless you put the blinds down, pull the shutters
Life is all you want to make it
You see a chance, you gotta take it>
Can't rely on no one but yourself

What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own

Trying to collapse what's around you
To build a fortress higher than the last
All that time and all that pain all that heartache's just in vain
Save it for the knowledge you can gain
Just from standing in the rain

What you find and what you make is all you own
What you leave and what you take is all you own
What you want and what you get is all you own
What you need and what you have is all you own
What you are is on your own

"Lenore"

wanted to leave a bottle of cognac on your grave,
except with yellow roses, they’re your favorite
i know we both said that nevermore was just a poem
but it looks like life had something different in store.

i made a bed of brown and golden leaves beside the stone
and made a chalking of your grave to hang at home
to hang above the mantel, to hang inside my heart
to keep your spirit with me cause i just can’t let it part

make believe, pretend that it’s me
soaring with you in the infinite structure of time

no one ever got my side of the story,
i couldn’t help that i was slowly slipping away
i heard your love notes crying out to me
i heard your tears resound through the trees

i know you weren’t sick in mind or spirit too
just heartbroken at the fact of me & you
your whole life was nothing but sorrow
but just wait, cause you might see me tomorrow

make believe, pretend that it’s me
soaring with you in the infinite structure of time

"Heart of the Timing"

Someday when I’m drowning in choices
I’ll stop and consider you
Will you throw me the lifeline
Or bid me bon voyage
Is the heart of the timing there

The sun is lifting her head on the horizon
The mist is disappearing as my mind clouds
Do I follow you or step aside and let you pass
Is your heart with my timing here

I can’t answer that for you
I can’t dock the ship or
Lift the anchor from the sea
All I can do is follow the map
That guides me through
These feelings I wade through

I guess it’s fun to play around
But you might want to settle down
Can I become the girl that you claim
Once to have known
Is the heart of our timing here

I can’t answer that for you
I can’t dock the ship or
Lift the anchor from the sea
All I can do is follow the map
That guides me through
These feelings I wade through

"Could I Have Been So Sweet?"

I kneel before her temples and count the rays
Of light that pour through her eyes
As she prays inside so no one can hear her doubt
Crying tears of blood that flow just below her lips
Until they fall at the feet of the sun

Marble grooves carry the sacrifice on down
To where her knees are, seeping back inside
The body of a child born to Capricorn
As the tips of her fairest hair dance with the tears
They know that the outside's not the only part that's changed

A purple robe she wears at dusk
Crawling on the floor to reach for
Someone who's not there

Calling out so loud that surely her just twenty years ago can hear
Why doesn't she come home?

Leave the milk it's time for bed she says
Pull it back so in your dreams, you don't choke
Left her jar of sugar open, hoping the wind would wisp it away
Added flavor to a life that didn't need anything

Could I have been so sweet? She asks the mirror on the wall
It answers back in clearest form, why don't you ask the hall?

Calling out so loud that surely her just twenty years ago can hear
Why doesn't she come home?

"Moment of Emptiness"

Cry myself to sleep, in dreams I do not weep
Approaching a closer deep, tears into my pillow seep.
Wake up to the black, on my covers attached
Reminding me of little rest, as I see my face - it's all a mess.

Quickly, lay back down; Forget what's all around
Oh, the times I've tried.
Understand what I get from a moment of emptiness
It's just a place without regret.

There's no waking up for me, It's a pact inside of me to be
All alone for a while.
Letting go of the sound that keeps my heart
tightly bound into a ball of broken strings.

With the cool side up, I struggle with my love
Please look me in the eye, even if you're gonna lie.
Frizzy hair in knots, I give it one good toss.
God, how my head spins; I think I'll just lie down again

There's no waking up for me, It's a pact inside of me to be
All alone for a while.
Letting go of the sound that keeps my heart
tightly bound into a ball of broken strings.

"I Need a Lie"

I need sabbatical pants to take me out of here
to make me leave an island of fear
I need a walking stick to kick myself each time
I make myself bleed lonely tears

The countless times on my rug that held your kitten's fur
and all the memories on my bed that held our only worth

I need a lie
a comfort for my pain
I need a star
to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart
I need a star

I want the lesser life that knows no parody
oh what would I give for that gift
You want the best from me, but who am I to place the blame
you know it, it shouldn't be about that anyway

The countless times on my rug swept clean every night
and all the memories on my bed, alone & cold I'd fight

I need a lie
a comfort for my pain
I need a star
to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart
I need a star

Shoot the moon, rope the moon, use the moon
like you need to
Shoot the moon, rope the moon, use the moon
to remember who's living under it too...
I need a lie
a comfort for my pain
I need a star
to guide me through the rain
to connect to my heart
I need a star

"Pilaf"

Not a day goes by without me wondering
why i left you there
standing by your old white car
trembling with fear
Something in my stomach was aching like the plague
but I couldn't shake what my heart was telling me

too old to care about young things
too young to realize the importance of my dreams

following so close in a shadow i knew well
and very well it covers me and turns me unsurreal

take me back to that place
where we'd lie on the trampoline and
talk about the stars
that rendered all their light to warm us cold there in the dark
a light so dim but nevertheless there

I miss the touch of your hair
Playing guitar on the stairs
Loving you like no one else had ever cared...

Feeling you against me was always the best
we'd play until our fingers hurt
then test the air's warmness
I never in a million years imagined life like this
but it's here and fixed and so far gone
from high school dreams and wishes

following so close in a shadow i knew well
and very well it covers me and turns me unsurreal

too gone to care about past things
too past into the present brings
the hopeless, helpless future that I see

take me back to that place
where we'd lie on the trampoline and
talk about the stars
that rendered all their light to warm us cold there in the dark
a light so dim but nevertheless there

I miss the touch of your hair
Playing guitar on the stairs
Loving you like no one else had ever cared...

"Why She's Here"

She stares at her canvas
Questions her creativity
Fixes the glasses resting on her nose
Floating away on india ink

Takes her back to school days
& trips to the video store
But she can't travel that road anymore
It's too painful to ride by those flowers

So she's off to face what people say is life on the edge
In a world where your name is the only thing sacred
She can't believe it's happening to her this time around
Realization's too much to hold if you're playing for keeps

Must she feel all alone even though her brother's there
to Protect the enemies who violate
Feelings evoked from a bottle of rum

Takes her back to days at home
Rides were free and meals were cheap
But there's no more fuel to fan the fire
To keep her from questioning why she's here

And she's off to face what people say is life on the edge
In a world where your name is the only thing sacred
She can't believe it's happening to her this time around
Realization's too much too hold if you're playing for keeps

"What it takes to get to You"

you wish you could sing with the beautiful angels
that you aren't even sure are still there
you want to conform to the changes that everyone
else has made, makes you feel all alone
try as you may to convince yourself you're ok
while listeners in passing throw blank stares your way

you make believe that the world revolves around you
in order to escape the manifestation of fear
that lingers inside your soul, day after day,
and haunts you by night through the shadow of dreams
fight as you may to retain your own sanity
while people you've clung to just laugh in your face

maybe they cannot understand
and maybe they cannot comprehend
what it is that makes you you
what it takes to get to you

sorrow and frailty have finally taken over
what used to be known as the pretty girl's soul
the one who was envyed or hated by most
cause closed-minded people can never stay hushed

and the law of chaos i'd argue has appeared
and reared its ugly head and its curse like a spear
through the heart of the innocent, the soul of the weary
patroling the freedom lost within the city
limits on your life have caused you to wither away
and retreat from the person that you used to be

maybe they cannot understand
and maybe they cannot comprehend
what it is that makes you you
what it takes to get to you

"Loveliness of You"

Farther than
the shadow of a tree in noon day
sun
warms me with her loving arms that hold me in the light
that gently ease my mind

Coming to
the present forgetting all that's
true
Learning how to respond to the plan set forth ahead
how must I be aware

that what you are
is something beautiful
how could I
even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you

Maybe I
never took the chance to hold your
eyes
My glances cast painful reminders of the past
somehow we didn't know the rest

To this day
I never wanted to
believe
in someone who knows me better than I know myself
makes me want to just breathe in your breath

cause what you are
is something beautiful
how could I
even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you

Someday I
will make amends and
Fly
but until then, our lives must jointly die

But what you are
is something beautiful
how could I
even pass by the opportunity
Cause what you are
is something beautiful
why would I
even pass by the opportunity
to learn and grow in you
to live inside the loveliness of you

"This Life"

I could fall away
I need another day
To overcome you who are

Feeling in between
So little and so mean
But a prick that takes me to the
Ground

but below me
the water is rushing all
around me
I can’t stay out its rising up
Above me
So into this life I drown

Need a little air
My conscious is not aware
But you can’t take my life from
Me

And above me
The water is falling all
Around me
But doesn’t stop until it flows
Below me
So out of this life I grow

and although I know things may not be the same
I can still breathe living out in the rain

And above me
The water is falling all
Around me
But doesn’t stop until it flows
Below me
So out of this life I grow

"Like a Child"

Capture me
Take me down below your water
Help me hold my breath
Don't leave until it's over

My body floating
Your eyes glistening
Holding each other's arms
Forgetting where we are

Can't see my tears
They blend in with my vision
Oh the blurriness is bliss
Surrounds me, enters me

As you come to me
I slowly come to you
Could this be the first time
I've been here before?

You stole my biggest fear
When you brought me here
I followed you like a child

Release me
So our breathing compliments itself
I see light
in the dark through my eyelids

Shining from the inside out and
radiating into me through you
I only shine through you

Can't see your tears
They blend in with my vision
Oh the blurriness is bliss
Surrounds you, enters you

As I came to you
You slowly came to me
Could this be the first time
You've been here before?

You stole my biggest fear
When you brought me here
I followed you like a child...
...I love you like a child

"Do I Really Have to Beg"

I don’t wanna be that girl
That follows you around everywhere you go
See my eyes are weak
And I never know quite what I see
But I know you now
like I did not know you then
And it kind of
scares me

so don’t try to change my mind
and don’t think of me cause I won’t be there

cause what I need
is something more that you’ve been giving
do I really need to beg
and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg

I can’t help but wonder
How you
Could change so much without changing at all
but in my heart I know
That I cannot let you go
But you must tell me
Cause I want to be there

But what I need
Is something more than you’ve been giving
Do I really need to beg
and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg

stop it now
look at what you doing
cause you don’t mean
to do what youre doing

cause what I need
is something more that you’ve been giving
do I really need to beg
and what you need
is patience cause I’m tired of giving
do I really need to beg

"This Way"

You search for something in the dark
Wish that something wasn't my heart
Cause now that you've found me
I can't turn away
But I need some light to show me your way.

Everything is simple to you
Cause in the end it doesn't matter what you do
But I'm right there to sweep away what remains
Except for my lingering pain.

Caught in between
a lie I want to leave
And a soul that touches me
Anyway
And I'm not sure I can live this way

So let me be all I am
I can't be anymore than that
You try to push but I'll only pull away
And I don't want us to live this way.

Caught in between
a lie I want to leave
And a soul that touches me
Anyway
And I'm not sure I can live this way

Call on me
Call on me
To be me in you...
Caught in between
a lie I want to leave
And a soul that touches me
Anyway
And I'm not sure I will live this way

...For Rob :)

"Too Weak"

I’m usually the one
Who never gets what I need
The one who breaks hearts
Always unintentionally
But when I’m with you
I’m always content
And I can’t help but be afraid

That my love’s too strong
When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long?
I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes
To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it
This time I’m too weak

I know I may act
Like a child sometimes
Cause your love’s so big
It swallows all of my reasoning
But all I want is to give you my all
Yet I can’t help but be afraid

That my love’s too strong
When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long?
I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes
To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it
This time I’m too weak

All I want is to be near you
And sometimes I know that I may cling
And you know me so well
But you must understand
That I’ve never been this happy before

Is my love too strong?
When I’m holding you tight
Do I hold on too long?
I can’t help it if I
Want to be in your arms as much as I possibly can be
It’s scary sometimes
To be this in love with you
But I can’t help it
This time I’m too weak

"With Myself"

I pretend not to love you
When you stay gone for more than a day
But that’s just because I need you
More than I’ve ever needed anybody

I know it sounds pathetic
Playin mind games with myself
But it’s the only way around
Not having you in my arms

So don’t take it so slow
Next time you think about coming home
Don’t lay so low
Unless you want me completely gone
My love’s in the air if you’ll just breathe it in
Don’t take it so slow my patience is running thin
Some days I want you
And some days I want to die
Cause all the pain that builds and builds
Is worse than if the dam would just fold

I know it sounds pathetic
Feelin sorry for myself
Cause I shouldn’t feel this way
When you’re not in my arms

So don’t take it so slow
Next time you think about coming home
Don’t lay so low
Unless you want me completely gone
My love’s in the air if you’ll just breathe it in
Don’t take it so slow my patience is running thin
With myself…

"A Little More"

Twistin my thoughts around my finger at night
Trying to think of all the things I’ve done right
But they fall too fast to the floor for me to recover them
Then I just wish for more

My anger builds as my confusion grows
My lips can’t speak what my heart already knows
Concern sets in where reason usually kicks in
Then I wait for more

Seeing life with blinders on can only cause pain
Especially when there are greater things to obtain
So don’t I wish that I could laugh
a little more

too many times I walk on the wire
and so many times I wish that I could fly higher
so I could touch the star that all these wishes rest upon

"Goodbye"

Please stand by my way, open your ears to the importance of this
Silence took the place, held it's embrace on the regression of my heart
Why you left me here, I'll never know but your satisfaction grows
So here I am, a feminine man stripping away my outer shell

Do I take my time? If so, so long and goodbye

Should I take the time to believe in something that I will never see
A force in my midst, a flailing attempt to uncover myself completely

Do I take my time? If so, so long and goodbye

Goodbye, Goodbye, I will sail you home...

Fear never contests, it only concedes to the subconscious reasoning
That my life will never unfold, a story just waiting to be told

Do I take my time? If so, so long and goodbye

Goodbye, Goodbye, I will sail you home...

"When Nothing Else is Real"

Come in though my lights are out
hold out your hands and feel around
How do i let you do this to me?
For my sanity I must break myself away from you

But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real

Pardon my kindness
I was only caring and dumb
Why did I let you do this to me?
For my sanity I must break myself away from you

But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real

Why do I let you do whatever you want to?
Why do I let you do whatever you want to?
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when I'm all by myself
But I will and I'll still remember you when I should forget
And I will feel you still when nothing else is real

"A World that doesn't Want Me"

For days I have been lingering
Waiting for the world to open its doors
Many times I’ve stood
On balconies without ledges
Hoping no one would see
Cause what I’m about to do
Is give up on me and you
And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me

For years I have been dreaming
Silently for the one who makes me believe
Many times I’ve stood
On balconies without ledges
Hoping that you would see
Cause what I’m about to do
Is give up on me and you
And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me

Why should I try to find a place
inside myself when I can’t face
This love inside my heart;
the whole damn thing just comes apart
And falls into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want...

For now I must be leaving
Staying for a cause that’s dying is dumb
Many times I’ve stood
On balconies without ledges
Hoping that I would see
Cause what I’m going to do
Is give up on me and you
And fall into the arms
Of a world that doesn’t want me

"Life Since You"

Fall
Into me
Reach
Inside me
To find
The love

That has your name upon my lips
Your touch across my heart
Your pulse beating thru my veins
Your scent that tears me apart

Tears have I counted
Though empty smiles remain
But life since you
Just hasn’t been the same

Take
My wary hand
Feel
The warmth it lends
And find
The love

That has your name upon my lips
Your touch across my heart
Your pulse beating thru my veins
Your scent that tears me apart

Tears have I counted
Though empty smiles remain
But life since you
Just hasn’t been the same

Leave the world behind for just a moment
Look into these eyes and prove that this
Bridge hasn’t been burned before it was built

Find
The love

That has your name upon my lips
Your touch across my heart
Your pulse beating thru my veins
Your scent that tears me apart

Tears have I counted
Though empty smiles remain
But life since you
Just hasn’t been the same

"Please"

rest beside me
so i can feel your dreams
dance beside me
so i can feel your strength
walk beside me
so i know you're always there
fight beside me
so i know you'll always care

please don't leave
please believe me
why must you always run away?
why must it always end this way?

there you are now
with tears in your eyes
trying to wash out
the fears you cannot hide
once forgotten
but somehow remains
hidden deeply
in a beautiful pain

please don't leave
please believe me
why must you always run away?
why must it always end this way?

"7 + 3"

7+3 doesn't equal 10 anymore
X marks the spot on the 21 it adores
So what's my chance for passing this grade?

But if I could subtract everytime
Cause a piece of what's given is mine
Then I'd be back to nothing.

You take it all in when taking it once
Funny how the numbers seem backwards and mixed up

There's more to you than a broken wrapper
There's more to you than a mark on paper

I'm not a girl a mirror lights up to see
My hair is clean but I'm just clad in flip-flops and jeans
So tell me now how I arrived

To take it all in when taking it once
Funny how the people seem backwards and messed up

There's more to me than a broken wrapper
There's more to me than a mark on paper

I'm suffering suffrage for you
I'm suffering suffrage for you
I'm bleeding on the inside for you
I'm beating on the inside as you

"Belle de Jour"

She made hands for you, had plans for you
She never wanted anything but to please you
Spoke your tounge for you, closed her mind for you
and never asked what her next role would be

You insult her now, you insult her now
You insult her now, you insult her now

She's forgiven you, but forgotten you
And you're something in her mind she cannot cling to
Washed her sheets of you, washed her heart too
and everything above her waist is running from you

She insults you now, she insults you now
She engulfs you now, she envokes you now

She makes love as your penance now
Swirls enough to never be let down
Belle de jour but without you now
Belle de jour but without you now

"On Valentine's Day"

Formerly known as a princess
Formerly known as a bitch
Formerly known as a friend to have fun with

Now known to me as a cop out
Now known to me as a bitch
Sighted too near or too far I don't know which

Thanks for leaving my present by the window sill
Baked by the sun, wet by the rain
Returned in a box on Valentine's Day

Formerly loved as a girl
Formerly loved as a fan
Formerly loved as a rock star, anxious hands

Now known to me as a finder
Now known to me as myself
Saw everything I needed to break this shell

Thanks for leaving my present by the window sill
You were the sun, you were the rain
Returned in a box on Valentine's Day

"Tribute"

I didn't come here tonight to start with you again
I couldn't care who you've done or where you've been
All I want is for you to finally give it to me straight
Cause I need peace of mind, I need your piece of mind
Cause God knows I've put in my time

All I felt from you was not what I wanted
I thought that you knew this soul was haunted
Tribute to the cause of lingering loss

At least I can say now a lesson was learned
And I have no regrets as far as you're concerned
Forge your name on this last bit of us that remains
Cause we are ending here and now, here and now
No debts left to renounce

All I felt from you was not what I needed
I thought that you knew this soul was haunted
Tribute to the cause of lingering loss

"Down"

One down, two more found
I can't help but know
That it'd end, but sooner than I planned
Now all I can wish for is

All, but it wasn't
All you had
I'll be sure to take away
All the memories you gave

Three hours past for my last
time to take this poison in my veins
And though we'll be
friends I see, but not at

All, but it wasn't
All you had
I'll be sure to take away
All the memories you gave

Yeah I understand, Yeah I understand
But what gets so damn complicated
is watching you unrated
watching someone else's eyes

One down, two more found
I'm down

"in between"

Allowed nothing but misunderstanding when I play
So may I offer one thing to see
and what I'll be
Is this pawn on your gameboard
Move me where you want
just don't knock me out again
out again

Though I believe
Though I believe there's something more than
what's in between
I know that it's more than it seems
than it seems

"Not On Angel Wings"

Move over monster, time for your replacement
You killed my mother and left me her shell
Damn you lucifer for taking away her trust
Making a woman turn into a child

And you hell has been passed to me
She floats and she sings, but not on angel wings

Maybe you've changed now, grown up into a person
Maybe you're soul's now as bright as the sun
But the damage is done and it's been done a long time
Passed down a line that forever bleeds

And you hell is alive in me
I float and I sing, but not on angel wings

My life is bruised and torn by the one who kisses it well
You haunt half that I am with just shadows to cover the scars

And your hell is alive in me
She floats and she sings, but not on angel wings

"Silence"

As I lie here awake by myself
And I think of the hands we were dealt
I photographed it deep inside my head
I photographed it deep inside my head
I want you to know that Silence can mean
I love you more than I ever did before

There was never a time when my heart
Didn't beat without you when I parted
I had you tucked away where I could find you
I have you tucked away where I can find you
I want you to know that Silence can bring
a heartache bigger than the oceans deep

I just wanna hear you speak my name
just wanna hold you to me
I could let you go if you'd let me
but you won't and I'm happy

"Forget You Break Her"

You grind the life out of me
with your smiles and twisted words
Make believe you love me
Make me think you want me

But your world's yours and no one else's
Feed the maker, forget you break her

Somehow my love grows for you
Pain for roots I'm not sure how
Kiss the waters gently
and still a storm brews upon your brow

Cause your world's yours and no one else's
Feed the maker, forget you break her
Forget you break her

Your world's yours and no one else's
Feed the maker
Forget you break her, forget you break her

"Last Girl to Stand"

Contrary thought of the day goes by slowly
taking a part in the drama surrounding
Every time speeds up life for the dying
packing to leave behind all of the memories

And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you live it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand

Glory will come when the angel's wheels
begin to turn thus soaring upward until
The heavens look as far away as hell does
bypassing time that's been thrust overboard

And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you know it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand

You're shape and form will change from before
You're heart and mind will be hard reborn
You're eyes I pray will sparkle still and
not dull to emotions that you feel

And you'll not feel their wrath any longer
Pain won't be recognizable
Life as you knew it will not exist cause
You'll be the last girl to stand

"Holy Words"

Holding something small
so close to your heart
so close that your lips don't move

The silence hurts my ears
so bad my heart skips
so bad my eyes want to dry

Lonely seconds draw a picture full of pain
a thousand words lost within a frame

Holy words never spoken
Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive
would shed light on these fears
would whisper sorry without shame

The further from the source
the warmer is the flame
to burn me with your distance again
And little light is there
to feel your stinging glare
my soul's almost burnt down and bare

Lonely seconds sing a song without words
their meaning lost within a voiceless verdict

Holy words never spoken
Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive
would shed light on my fears
would whisper sorry without shame

The promises you keep would be better left broken
could change this sinking sand into ground

Holy words never spoken
Holy words never mentioned
Holy words would forgive
would shed light on my fears
would whisper sorry without shame

"in shadows"

too many fish in the sea
it's all beyond me
when morning skies grey with glory surround me

I know
I fall
I see it all before me
like a crystal ball

You intend the best I know
but the clock never stops
my heart from showing me the way to insanity

I cry
I hurt
I want it all to end in shadows

Don't you know it's only me
creeping into your memory
Oh how you'd shine
Oh how you'd yell
a thought, a hiss, a burning hell

I know
I fall
I see it all before me
in shadows

"Echo"

City lights illuminate low lying clouds
Driving on an empty road, struggling to be found
But I bleed, and I need
to turn around

Oh this death creeps slowly with no end in sight
Still I forge on blindly through the foggy night
And I scream, but no one hears
the echo

Does my scream exist? Does my scream exist?
I can hear the echo, I can hear the echo run through me
I can hear the echo, I can hear the echo run through me
Does my scream exist? I can hear the echo

"No Greater Love"

You float like cigarette smoke
and I'm an opening window
Watch you dance by my eyes
and disappear, exit stage right

Wish I could keep more than your scent
but most of that slips away too
Wanted to get to know you
and maybe it was love at first sight

But the fire burns me
the smoke blinds me
but it's too late for me to close

I may know where you go to hide
but the words get lost on their way
If you'd just let me peek inside
then maybe my eyes could show you

But the fire burns you
the smoke blinds you
and it's too soon for you to close

There's no greater love
There's no greater love
than letting go

If I could keep you in my heart
Then I would beat for you
No words needed to free you
My love would keep you safe

There's no greater love
There's no greater love
than letting go

"Point of No Return"

Do you ride with the saints of compassion?
Do you drive with the angels of hell?
Can you see beyond these signs that guide you?
Remove your eyes from lines and still be found?

Do you slow down or go?
Do you slow down or go?

See the light up ahead it's a question
Beckoning from you one more reply
Feel its warmth fill your eyes dilation
Pick and change or push forth, which is your crime?

Do you slow down or go?
Do you slow down or go?

The rain pours down and yet the sun still burns
One second left, til the point of no return

"Slow Tears"

Slow tears are the worst to fall
They well up strong then slowly crawl
Taking much too long to taste
Washing what voice you may have away

A memory lingers in each one
That's why we try to hold them in
So if eyes are windows to the soul
My vision is blurred by a slow, steady rain

"What's Left to Find"

All is vanity
I want to be wise but it's far from me
Who can find what is so far away?
One among a thousand stay

Patience not Pride
Wisdom is Life
What's left to find?

All is sorrow
Never say the past is better
Self-righteousness brings death closer
Are all women sinners?

Patience not Pride
Wisdom is Life
What's left to find?

Madness
Mourning
Mimics

Is sadness better than laughter?
Does foolishness feed disaster?
Is Reason my escape from what we make?

Patience not Pride
Wisdom is Life
What's left to find?

"The Year to End My Life"

5 places my head would rest
Only 1 felt like Home
9 faces my heart would test
Half let me cry alone

Had I become stupid or lazy?
Did my adventures make me go crazy?
Oh the tiny places I slept when I could sleep at all

2 people then unknown
Unknown to me now
Left scars so deeply pressed
My mind still never rests

Did I become numb and abused?
Did I right all the wrong unexcused?
Oh the tiny prayers that I prayed when I could pray at all

7 sets of eyes that stare and feel and forget and fear

The year to end my life
is bandaged and confused
151 instead of friends
Alone and being used

At least it's over now
Winter seems so sweet
Am I a January Girl? Warmest heart with coldest feet...

"Fly"

There's just a touch of the warmth I used to know running thru me
There's just enough of the rain I used to feel falling on me
That when it's cold outside, a small part of me cries

So listen up if you wanna know the truth about my dealings
Cause it's all shit, and it makes me wanna bleed out my treason
So when it's warm outside, a small part of me dies

And it's not fair to judge just because you're mad
My sin will erase what I could have been

I'll be the first to cast a stone upon my indecision
I'll never try again to hide beneath the cloak of intuition
Cause when I'm safe inside I'm only shielded by my lies

But it's not fair to judge just because you can
My sin will erase what I could have been

"Nevermore" quoth the girl who's morning dew kept her from heaven
Silhouettes on the carpet mark the stains of resurrection
So when I step outside I'll leave behind my ruined wings and Fly

"Twenty"

Metal made me
I am made
I feel
unafraid

dead
dead
dead

Cover me so
gently cold
Wrap me
with your soul

dead
dead
dead

You allow this
secret entrance
when an exit burns

Close the Gates of Heaven
Give my Soul no Pardon

This is my body
This is my body
This is my body
This is my body

"Aratin"

little reluctant god
perched upon my shoulder
her vision is celestial
her palms embrace time...time

she rediscovers senses
unravels all my secrets
gives fingerprints to dreams
and opens...opens me

black reflections of her body
come alive when light is hiding
are her shadows still or moving

crystalized blood forms on her lips
eyes become beacons that'd blind an abyss
as she turns my mind to a dying tree
and my heart the falling leaves

soul stealer on the wind
blows gently over my mind
and causes beats to cease
then wakens...wakens me

"tides"

Vega's holding the moon by a thread
and you're sleeping

The North Wind caresses my hair
and I'm dreaming

My eyes catch a glimpse of your moonlit body
thru curtains of blonde and red

I fall to the sky wishing you would come with me
then wake as I drown in the nite

Sail me away on a homemade raft
Ripple the stars just enough to look back
and wait for the sunrise that nite after nite never comes

You once proclaimed that stars
were the frozen tears of God

Well tonite God's eye is fully open
but tomorrow fully closed

And I can be myself tomorrow
so can we be us tonite?

Sail me away on a homemade raft
Ripple the stars just enough to look back
and wait for the sunrise that nite after nite never comes

"til day drifts by"

For the morning
I will feel her tears
With each step gracefully wet
Until I breathe her in

In the moonlight
Shining down for me
Search I to find you
On this endless sea

For the mourning
I wll taste his tears
Become mine although time
Is neither law nor crime

In the moonlight
If the clouds roll by
I'll hold onto you
til day drifts by

"lonely"

Lonely
I feel so lonely
Wanna hide in my darkest dream
Away from you and me

Lonely
I stay so lonely
Wanna hide in my darkest dream
Where no one hears me scream

And he lies to me
and covers me with all these hopes
and all these dreams
And he lies to me
holding me with nothing better
than awakened sleep

And he knows the way
to push me when I'm down
push me when I'm down
And he lies to me
Counting what we had
before we believed in nothing

Lonely
I feel so lonely
wanna hide in my darkest dream
away from you and me

"forks & spoons"

I hold
You pierce
Smooth curves
Sharp legs

Lips curl around me
Teeth pull against thee
and yes, we both can be cold

I'm round
You're square
We rust
In air

and serve the same taste
as tounges slide underneath
but yes, I've had enough holes

So I thought I needed to be held as well
but my body was washed clean again
And if I would wish to be soiled and used
I'm afraid once again I would lose

so come get your knife

"nothing"

simple eden you claim
brought you down to your knees
brought you higher than trees
on a starry night

as the sun reappeared
all your senses were drained
all your fears left to face
on your own

on your own
on your own to seek dark in a light
where no shadows are born

precious lover you cry
am i sensing a lie
am i looking too deep
into nothing
why you hide from me so
is the silence i show
shall i then spread your lips
with my own

on my own
on my own to seek dark in a light
where no shadows are shown

on my own
on my own
on my own to see dark in a light
where no shadows are born

"touch me"

do you care about the things that you don't know
or do you like to hide yourself away

If I try to be the one to tie you down
will you only turn and walk away

If I ask kindly and do not cry
will you hold it against me


Do you want the things that matter most
or do you like to spend your days alone

Do you need silence when times get down
or will you need a friend to pull you around

I won't try if your heart falls
if you bring it back to me


If I told you I loved you and wanted you
to feel me, would you touch me?

"Oblivious to the Obvious"

Am I taking you for granted if I know that I do
You're always there for me like I can't be for you
Too selfish sometimes I think maybe I'm blind
and maybe it's better that way

Do I call you too often with nothing to say
I think all of our honesty gets in the way
Too moody sometimes I think maybe I'm dying
and baby it's better this way

I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious

Is it playing hard to get if you've been broken before
Too many walls built around my heart with no doors
So stupid sometimes I go out of my mind
and maybe baby I'm living a lie

I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious

Drunk behind the wheel
Stuck in second gear
Afraid of going fast
How long will this last
Lights are blurring past

I'm a second guess, major mental mess
I'm oblivious to the obvious
I'm a ball of stress, psycho I confess
I'm oblivious to the obvious

"Again"

Tired of being lonely, tired of being tired
Tired of being everything to everyone all the time
Finally found a reason to leave this place
Then you jump back into my life and set a different pace
It's been a long long time, since you were on my mind
And if I could, I'd take you with me now

Cause I need you to be you
cause I don't know if I can fall that hard again
And I want you to need me
if your love is something I can hold onto

When I thought I needed just to be myself
Letting go was all that I could do to make it through
Maybe it was better to go our seperate ways
But true love never dies, I guess I figured that a little late
It's been a long, long time since I could say you were mine
And if you would, I'd take you with me now

Cause I need you to be you
cause I don't know if I can go that far again
And i want you to need me
if your love is something I can hold onto

It's wrong of you to love me this way
and it's wrong me me to love you this way

I need you...I don't know if I can go that far again...But you know I would
I want you...I don't know if I can go that far again...But you know I would
I need you...I don't know if I can go that far
If your love is something I can hold onto

"A Little While"

For this I plead
This scary need to feel you
Is driving me more down to find

This place inside
For once in my life
To put it all behind
For just a little while

Today's sorrow
Is just a glimpse of thoughts
That vanish when I see your eyes

This place inside
For once in my life
To put it all behind
For just a little while

To see you here
To know I'm not alone
Forget-me-nots with roses thorns
with roses thorns

"Sex Hair"

Something good is happening
but it won't be done til I'm asleep
Maybe when I wake in the morning sun
I won't know where I'll be

But I'll have sex hair and smoke in my clothes
Wake you up to say hello
Drink water from the sink
Bitch a little cause I know I stink and then
Hold my head with tired hands
Avoid the mirror of one night stands cause I
don't need reminding of what I've done
There are empty bottles on the floor
you leaning on the bathroom door
Why do I always say I won't do this anymore?

Thoughts run cycles through my brain
as I walk blindly to my car
Pieces tend to fall in place
but not all cause my headache's coming hard

And I'll have sex hair and smoke in my clothes
Wake you up to say hello
Drink water from the sink
Bitch a little cause I know I stink and then
Hold my head with tired hands
Avoid the mirror of one night stands cause I
don't need reminding of what I've done
There are empty bottles on the floor
you leaning on the bathroom door
Why do I always say I won't do this anymore?
Why do I always say I won't do this anymore?

"Love Potion No. 10"

How much do I love thee? Let me count the ways
When fire burns my eyes into a salty flooded grave
When smiles begin to fade more quickly than the setting sun
When sleepy thoughts take rest upon the barrel of a gun

How much do you love me? Let me count the ways
When I love you is an intermission between acts of hate
When seeds that have no life are planted time & time again
Expecting fruit to blossom on an imaginary stem

The water's white, the oil is black
Love Potion No. 10
We shake and swirl and dance and twirl
but seperate in the end

"Never"

I crawl on hands and knees
waiting patiently
Bleeding as I plead
feeling nothing

As you turn your back
disown all you can
permanant dismember
falling into Never

I beg with shaky hands
won't you understand?
Cringing at the sound
lost but not found

As you turn your back
disown all you can
permanant dismember
falling into Never
into Never

Can't find the answers that you hide
buried them alive
wishing they would die

I crawl on hands and knees
waiting patiently
Bleeding as I plead
feeling nothing

"Backseat Blues"

Sittin in my room
sippin on the goose
try and get the troubles out of my mind

Call me on the phone
tell you I'm not home
you know I'm gonna fuck you anyway

Backseat blues
Moonlight views
Nothing new

Now I'm all but spent
I think you've got the hint
If you want it baby the time is now

Cause once the goose is gone
and I'm safe at home
then I can start to hate you all over again

Backseat blues
Moonlight views
Nothing new

"ABYSS"

Blackest black surrounds me as I cringe with every sound
Bodies all around me but I don't want to be found
The light shines on me now

Keeping time with time is the hardest thing to do
I cannot see behind me, oh my god what will you do?
My eyes are blinded now

And I Want
And I Want
And I Want

Grey is not the answer for this life I wish to lead
Maybe when my blood is spilled, the light will set me free
The time has come to leave

And I Want
And I Want
And I want to resurrect the child
Feel her warmth and see her smile
Stand within her shadow dark
While purity rips my soul apart
Lie above my empty grave
Feed the beast on which I crave
Shatter love and shatter life
Sacrifice the womb inside
Inside

Blackest black surrounds me as I cringe with every sound
Bodies all around me but I don't want to be found
The light shines on me now