"Say the word, my love," Armand said.  "I'll do it.  We'll be in hell together after all."

"But don't you see," Daniel said, "all human decisions are made like this.  Do you think the mother knows what will happen to the child in her womb?  Dear God, we are lost, I tell you.  What does it matter if you give it to me and it's wrong!  There is no wrong!  There is only desperation, and I would have it!  I want to live forever with you."

~Queen of the Damned, Anne Rice

Hello again, boys and girls. No, your eyes do not decieve you - The Devil's Minion has once again returned to the "land of the living" (pardon the expression). I know it's been a very long time since I did *anything* with this page, but I assure you that my months of neglect are over, and you can expect to find many modifications in the months to come.  I've had quite an interesting time during my leave of absence. Alas, I have suffered what almost all of us suffer at one time or another - that dark period of time, shortly after our creation, that we find ourselves at odds with our immortality... begin to question our nature as vampires, and subsequently ourselves. A bout of insanity, for lack of a better word - that drew me away from my home here in Miami, to the most desolate corners of all 7 continents in my search for redemption.
 

I pray you to understand that I was not myself for these months.... my hatred for my immortality, my predatory nature, even my beloved Amadeo - all these were things I felt quite strongly, and yet were never a part of me. It was as if I was looking through a glass window at myself, unable to control my own emotions. I watched myself become more and more like our beloved Louis each night -with a resentment for my maker, and my life, not indigenous to my own personality. This was not me! This was not the man who had begged for immortality for twelve long, hard, heartbreaking years! Why, I should be savoring every second of it, not wasting night after night loathing it! This life was Armand's gift to me, and how I was hurting him (to say nothing of myself) with this outburst of rebellion against the creature I had for so long dreamed of becomming.

When these thoughts began to form in my head, I knew that the end of this dark period was near.
 

I have returned to my beloved once more, and I'm happy to say that all ammends have been made. How I ever could have hated him for making me what I am, I no longer understand. Not to say that he's still not infuriating at times. ~*~smiles~*~ He's always found creative ways to drive me up the proverbial wall. But giving me this amazing, unending gift is certainly not one of them. This is what I asked him for for twelve years, and I don't intend to dishonor him again with any second thoughts. After all... I have now what I have always wanted. We are in Hell together after all - and what a beautiful Hell on Earth this is.  I beg of you not to listen to the outrageous rumors of my hatred for him. We are still very much together, very much in love....for two souls that are meant for eachother will never really part.
 

Well, there you have it. Expect to be seeing more of me in the months to come - I assure you that quite a few renovations of this page are already in the works.  Also, feel free to leave a message for me in my guestbook - I shall be checking it routinely from now on. Until we meet again, mes amis, I bid you a fond... adieu....