early adult part one
As my early adult years unfolded, college was happening and all those things associated with it.
I did not really want to go to college but that was the thing to do then, and my parents forced me
to go, therefore, my heart wasn't really in it, that besides the fact that I had no clue what I wanted
to do or courses to take.
And now that I was out of high school, I definitely had more time on my hands. I continued on
helping out the school's teams, more now in an administrative position than anything else and that
helped somewhat. Now though, the specter of wanting to find a girl to spend some time with was
beginning to come to the forefront of my thinking since I no longer had any friends from school to
chum around with. I had friends but they were all younger than me and they had their own agendas
to carry out during the week.
After years of spinning my wheels at school, I decided that I had had enough and went in
search of work. Luckily, my father had a connection at his place of work who turned me on to
another company in the same field, railroading, and I am still there today.
Again faced with the difficult task of trying to fit in to another new place and what made matters
worse is the people who worked there were very quiet and viewed me as someone they didn't
want to associate with. Talk about tough!
Two years after I started there, I bought a house and moved there with my parents, wanting to
get them out of the neighborhood we were in, which was deteriorating. It was with this move to the
suburbs that my life started to change.
Prior to this, I was not much of a party animal, but now I became one, going out after work, or
taking a day off to go out and drink with the guys and have a good time. Some of us got lucky and
some of us didn't. Mostly I would go home with the morning paper.
That is when I discovered adult book stores. For some reason, I had never been and to this
day, still am not turned on by Playboy or magazines like that. But then, in the book stores, I
discovered a whole new world of sexuality. One that helped me get through those nights of being
alone, if you catch my drift.
Being perfectly honest with you, at first I was really turned on by the bondage scene and also
the latex and rubber clothing magazines and stories. Very erotic! and satisfying, too! :)
It was at this time, that I also found the TV section of the store and not really knowing what
one was, I bought some of them. Looking through the pictures and drawings and reading the text
became a very pleasurable thing to do late at night. Then I saw one advertising "become the
woman you always wanted to be" on the cover. Seeing that did something inside my head, and
after taking it home and reading it, my thinking drifted to that, wondering myself what it would
feel like to be a woman instead of the dull, drab individual I perceived myself to be.