Random Thoughts
Come as quickly as they go
as I take a drag
off my sixth ciggerette
I don't feel alive
as I sit and write this
I don't even know
where I'll be tomorrow
the uncertainty kills
a capricorn mind like mine
Yesterday
I had it all planned
until he turned my world
-around-
And nothing can save me now
from this darkness
of hate
lust
And I sit here
with nowhere togo
nothing to plan
except where I'll park my car
tonight
to sleep
my days of dreams
turned into hoplessness
in the flicker of a match
brought to my mouth
And I take a drag off the seventh
numbness has kicked in
No tears left to cry
No plans of love
left to plan
All that is left
is my ciggerettes
All that I have is
the high of nicotine
to ignore the darkness
of hate
lust
th ashes fly
off my eigth
when will it run out
the buzz of nothingness
when will it end?
on the ninth or tenth
or twentieth
when my money runs out
and my faith
in quiet
swirls in the drain