" FUCKED "
THERE'S A TWISETED MESS STIRRING AROUND MY HEAD
I FUCKED UP - AGAIN
CONFUSION STRIKES AGAIN
WHAT AM I GOING TO ACCOMPLISH IF ALL I CAN DO IS FUCK UP?
I SHALL STRIVE TO BECOME NOTHING
BY BECOMING NOTHING I WON'T GET DISAPPOINTED IF EVERYTHING GOES WRONG
WHY IS IT EASIER TO FUCK UP, RATHER THAN TO SUCCEED?
WHO ESTABLISHES SUCCESS?
TO ACHIEVE THE AMERICAN DREAM -
- 2 STORY HOUSE
- 2 KIDS
- PERFECT MARRIAGE
WHO WANTS TO SPEND THEIR LIFE CONTROLLED BY POLITICS AND MONEY?
PLAY THE CARDS LIFE HAS DEALT YOU AND HOPE TO WIN
SUCCESS COMES TO THOSE WHO KNOW HOW TO PLAY
PLAY TO WIN - PLAY FOR YOURSELF - FUCK ALL THE REST
I SHALL BE CONTENT IN LOSING MY HAND EVERY TIME
I HAVE NO EXPECTATIONS FOR MYSELF
OR
I CAN TAKE IT LIKE A GRAIN OF SALT AND TRY AGAIN
WHAT WILL I ACCOMPLISH BY CONTINUALLY TRYING?
SO FAR IT'S PROVING TO BE NOTHING
I'LL JUST STAY CONTENT IN BEING A FUCK-UP -
THIS WAY NO ONE WILL HAVE GREAT EXPECTATIONS FOR ME.
-ANA
10-18-95