AND IN THE END



DESTRUCTION OF MY SOUL.
TRAMPLED UNDER FOOT -
SILENCED IN DEPRESSION
CRUSHED.
NO MORE FEELINGS-
NO MORE WORDS -
NOTHING.


YOU CAUSED THIS -
YOU AND YOUR STUPID WAYS.
THE WAY EVERY LITTLE DETAIL MEANT SO MUCH TO YOU-
BUT YOU NEVER SAW ME AS A WHOLE-
JUST DETAILS.


YOU NEVER TRULY CARED-
JUST PRETEND-
PRETEND TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU WANT.
SO I MADE BELIEVE-
TO PACIFY YOU.
STUCK IN ILLUSIONS OF PERFECTION UNTIL THE WALLS CRUMBLED DOWN AROUND ME.


AND YOU STAYED-
TO WATCH ME RISE FROM THE DESTRUCTION.
AND YOU SPOKE-
YOUR TRUE FEELINGS ABOUT ME.


THEN YOU SHUT YOUR EYES AND EARS-
BEFORE I COULD SPEAK.
YOU DIDN’T WANT TO SEE MY TEARS.
YOU LET MY HAND SLIP FROM YOURS-
WITHOUT THOUGHT OR REMORSE.


SO NOW I SEE THE TRUE YOU-
SITTING IN DARKNESS
SHUTTING DOWN TO THE WORLD.


AND IN THE END-
I’LL BE STANDING.
AND YOU-
WILL STILL BE A
HELPLESS-
LITTLE-
BOY-
WHO REFUSES TO BE UNDERSTOOD.


-ANA
12-05-97





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