July 25, 2003
I just got another phone call from Aunt Mer. Grandma woke up for a little while and told my Uncle Vinne that she doesn't want to die, she's scared to die! She knows she missed her dialysis yesterday and she asked to have it.

So they are going to try to bring her blood pressure up to give her dialysis.

She's so little and she's so weak, I don't understand why they are going to continue to do any of this. It makes me so mad! I don't understand! Why is it when we have an animal that is so sick, we put it to sleep, but a person who is so sick and dying and there is nothing else they can do, why on earth can't we put them to sleep! WHY!!!

She's like 70 lbs! You can't even touch her because if you do, it leaves a burse on her. She can't do anything for herself. What kind of life is this? We aren't talking about someone who's young who has their whole life ahead of them, yes then I would say fight fight fight! She's almost 85 years old. She had a wonderful life.